What's Next?

Wow, guys. I'm sorry it's been so long since I've written. I haven't had a moment to myself since I wrote that last post - in August!

Since then, so much has happened. I've dropped one of my majors. I've helped my roommate through a rough break-up. and I've started seeing the school psychologist on a regular basis. I don't know what I was thinking, taking 20 hours, having a job, and attempting to have a life. It's impossible; take it from me.

I don't really have too much to say, but BigD has been giving me a hard time about posting.

As the semester comes to a close, I'm getting a little excited about next semester but also a little disappointed about the end of this semester. I've really enjoyed my classes. So many of my friends are graduating next semester that I almost don't want it to come. As much as I'll miss them, I know that they have so much waiting for them in the real world.

Honestly, I'm terrified of what the "real world" holds for me. For the first time, I'll be completely alone and independent. I try to be as independent as I can now, and I tell my friends and family that I'm excited about moving out and getting my own place. On one hand, I am. At the same time, though, it holds so much uncertainty. I'm not so good with uncertainty. I have every minute of every day accounted for and have most of my life (down to my kids) planned already. I do know that's impossible, that it won't play out that way. It makes life a little less stressful, though. In chapel one day, our speaker said, "This is the plan for my life; God's plan be different. It's my choice to follow mine or His." I'm still facing that and trying to decide which path is mine.

Sorry, didn't mean to get religious on you.

Oh man, now I'm late. I'll try to post in the upcoming week. We'll see how that works out. ;)

-SC